We have car insurance and health insurance, but what about “What if?” insurance? What if your car breaks down? What if you’re laid off? What if you get seriously sick? What if your computer dies and the manuscript you’ve been working on for two years dies with it? What if you get in a car accident and break your arm; how will you learn to paint or write with your other hand?
Do you have a plan for when life happens?
I don’t want to scare anyone, but these things happen to everyday people every day. As the saying goes, it’s not a matter of “if” something happens, but “when.” I’ve realized how planning is so important to every part of your life, especially creatively and career-wise.
Recently, I found out my contract at one of my jobs has an expiration date. I’ve worked there for four years and have known that there was no guarantee that my contract would renew every few months, but it did for four years. So when my boss and the HR director told me my job is being cut due to next year’s changing budget, and a new position is being created in its place, I had mixed feelings. Surprise, frustration, disbelief, and anger. I felt a stab of hurt. What about loyalty?
But I also felt relief. I’ve been thinking about where God wants me next for a while now, but I’ve been too afraid to admit it to many people. I’ve felt the urge to change jobs, but I also hate change. I’m easily scared when it comes to the unknown. I felt safe with my familiar coworkers and familiar job. I felt like a failure because what I had done for the past four years doesn’t seem to matter to many people. I felt like a failure for being laid off. But then I choked back tears and decided something. (Okay, I cried a little when I told my husband later on.)
I will see this rejection as an opportunity.
This change is an opportunity for my current workplace to grow with the new position. It’s an opportunity for me to decide whether I want to pursue that new position there, or change paths and pursue another job somewhere else. It’s an opportunity for me to be grateful that I currently have two jobs and even if I’m losing one on July 1 and my other job-pursuing efforts fail between now and then, at least I still have one job.
No matter how this situation plays out, I have an opportunity to try a new job and learn about myself.
I’m so glad I’ve been thinking about “What if I’m supposed to move jobs soon?” before I was essentially warned about my impending layoff. While I still feel a stab of hurt and confusion, I’m not scared about what’s next. Okay, I’m still nervous because what I pursue might not work out, but that’s a part of life. It’s a part of learning and growing as a person. It’s a part of the creative process.
Challenge: What if something changes dramatically in your life tomorrow? Do you have a back-up plan?
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